love

well someone asked me this qtn on d blog
"how do u thnk the horse depicts love?"
the image i have put on the previous to previous blog is my picture of love as an emotion..love..this picture shows all the creatures in pairs...mayb as nature intends them to be eventually in life..all of dem..be it the birds, the butterflies or the horses are free...flyin away..running away to freedom..away from the retrictions society puts on you..away from what your near ones expect..away from what the world wud expect u to do ideally..lost in the pure feeling of two people caring and loving each other..
and more than the individual components, it is the picture on the whole..i read a beautiful idea somewhere..that maths does not apply to real life..everything doesnt add up to the sum..same with this picture..the individual beauty of the components does not add up to the actual beauty that the picture has..it is above what it is made of..i donot know if i am being clear about what i am saying..atleast im clear to myself:)..

scared

Im scared today..scared of dreaming and thinking of stuff I might not be able to have..there are things that I think I want but am not allowed to get..wat do I do?break the restrictions?or continue living as I am..there are things I think I would be happy with but I will end up hurting some of my loved ones..what should I do??shud I follow my heart or the rules set for me??
Scared today

Scared to dream
In case I dream too much

Scared to think
In case I think too much

Scared to hope
In case my hopes are shattered

Scared to expect
In case I am disappointed

Scared to be happy
In case I reach the peak and fall

Scared
But still dreaming
Thinking
Hoping
Expecting
Being happy

And finally happiness is what that matters:-p

aapse milkar

aapse milkar kuch ajab sa ho gaya hai
jaise tanhayee se prem ho gaya hai
sab ke saath hotein hai to tanhai ko taraste hain
aur tanhai mein aapke baare mein bi sochte hain
dil ko ek ajab sa sukoon milta hai
jab aapke khayal ka phool dil mein khilta hai
tanha hotein hai to aapke shabdon ko taraste hain
ichha karte hain ke apko ehsaas ho hamari tanhayi ka
kabhi socha na tha ki hamaare aise haal honge
ki jisse bole bina raha na jaata tha
wahi apni chuppi mein sukh paati hai
niraala hai ye ishqjo chanchal ko shaant banata hai
pehle bhi aapke shabd meethe lagte the
par ab to weh shehed lagte hain
aapse kuch der baat na hoto sab kuch adhoora lagta hai
ek pal ke liye jhalak mil jaayeto hi din poora lagta hai
ye prem hi hai
jo chitt ko swach kar
mann ko khush kar
aanand prapt karwata hai
baaki sab tuch haijhuth hai
prem hi sach hai

i stil remember

I still remember..


I still remember those nights
Moonlit, starry nights
When hand in hand we walked away
Walked away to eternal bliss
That slight fragrance of jasmine
That familiar scent of your body
I still remember..

I still remember those days
Sunny, warm winter days
When together on the green grass we lay
Lay, feeling content
That brightness of the flowers
That sight of your smile
I still remember..

I still remember those times
Depressed, frustrated, dark times
When you held me
Held me as never before
The way you kissed my eyes
The way you gave me strength
I still remember..

You have taken away a lot
Left me quite bereft
But there are things you left behind
The memories, the touch, the feel
You can’t take them away
As they, are mine
So I still remember
I still remember..


Note: inspired by the songs of silsilay. Perspective of rekha (chandni) after amitabh bachhan (amit) leaves her to marry jaya (shobha). The movie has awesome poetry narrated by amitabh. My favourite lines from this poem are “You have taken away a lot, left me quite bereft”. They somehow touch me deeply.