scared

Im scared today..scared of dreaming and thinking of stuff I might not be able to have..there are things that I think I want but am not allowed to get..wat do I do?break the restrictions?or continue living as I am..there are things I think I would be happy with but I will end up hurting some of my loved ones..what should I do??shud I follow my heart or the rules set for me??
Scared today

Scared to dream
In case I dream too much

Scared to think
In case I think too much

Scared to hope
In case my hopes are shattered

Scared to expect
In case I am disappointed

Scared to be happy
In case I reach the peak and fall

Scared
But still dreaming
Thinking
Hoping
Expecting
Being happy

And finally happiness is what that matters:-p