Wednesday, December 06, 2006


well someone asked me this qtn on d blog
"how do u thnk the horse depicts love?"
the image i have put on the previous to previous blog is my picture of love as an picture shows all the creatures in pairs...mayb as nature intends them to be eventually in life..all of it the birds, the butterflies or the horses are free...flyin away..running away to freedom..away from the retrictions society puts on you..away from what your near ones expect..away from what the world wud expect u to do ideally..lost in the pure feeling of two people caring and loving each other..
and more than the individual components, it is the picture on the whole..i read a beautiful idea somewhere..that maths does not apply to real life..everything doesnt add up to the sum..same with this picture..the individual beauty of the components does not add up to the actual beauty that the picture is above what it is made of..i donot know if i am being clear about what i am saying..atleast im clear to myself:)..

Tuesday, December 05, 2006

bhopal gas tragedy

did you know that
1) a part of the corporation Union Carbide which owned the plant that causes bhopal gas tragedy has being renamed as eveready insutries(whose cells we all use) so as to make people forget their anger for Union Carbide and still sell their products.
2) the ceo of union carbide at that time has still not been extradited from US.
3) the governement of india was confered the right by the courts to fight for the bhopal citizens and insted of the 3.3 billion initial compensation demand, they settled for 470 million.
4) the plant in bhopal still lies polluted with the pollutants seeping into the groundwater.
5) dow industries with which UC merged refused to accept any responsibility now for this event.
6) dow chemicals has an ad campaign sayin there should be a human element like all the other elements and in this campaign has done philanthrophic work in bombay, while at the same time this is the company which produced dangerous chemicals like napalm nd agent orange used in vietnam war...tats called hypocrisy.
Sunil Kumar, a Bhopal gas survivor (who lost his parents and five siblings in the tragedy) who worked tirelessly with the international campaign for justice on Bhopal, committed suicide recently. Thousands of other survivors suffer psychological afflictions, but there are no provisions for the treatment of mental health problems as a consequence of the gas disaster.
read sunil kumars story on and plant a tree in his memory on 27th september every year.

Sunday, December 03, 2006





you can't please everyone

You know lots of people have this ailment..”not being able to say no to people”..
i had this..i used to give more importance to people rather than myself..that way I would end up troubling myself a lot for other people’s sake..thats bad because you cant keep others happy till you are happy so don’t try to be god..just be a normal human being.

An Aesop fable
A man and his son were once going with their Donkey to market. As they were walking along by its side a countryman passed them and said: “You fools, what is a Donkey for but to ride upon?”

So the Man put the Boy on the Donkey and they went on their way. But soon they passed a group of men, one of whom said: “See that lazy youngster, he lets his father walk while he rides.”

So the Man ordered his Boy to get off, and got on himself. But they hadn't gone far when they passed two women, one of whom said to the other: “Shame on that lazy lout to let his poor little son trudge along.”

Well the Man didn't know what to do, but at last he took his Boy up before him on the Donkey. By this time they had come to the town, and the passersby began to jeer and point at them. The Man stopped and asked what they were scoffing at. The men said: “Aren't you ashamed of yourself for overloading that poor Donkey of yours—you and your hulking son?”

The man and Boy got off and tried to think what to do. They thought and they thought, till at last they cut down a pole, tied the Donkey's feet to it, and raised the pole and the Donkey to their shoulders. They went along amid the laughter of all who met them till they came to Market Bridge, when the Donkey, getting one of his feet loose, kicked out and caused the Boy to drop his end of the pole. In the struggle the Donkey fell over the bridge, and his fore-feet being tied together, he was drowned.

“That will teach you,” said an old man who had followed them:
“Please all, and you will please none.”

Well, so the best thing is to keep yourself happy..dont agree to do someone’s work if it makes u overburdened or unhappy because anyways you won’t do it properly then.dont give your commitment a higher priority than yourself..because you matter first and then your commitment..this way you may end up getting gaalis from some people but atleast u’ll be happy and anyways you’ll get sum gaalis(*&#*$#$&*#@#*) so why not get them for your happiness..

Saturday, December 02, 2006

im blueeee

this is wat a color test online said for me..
You're blue — the most soothing shade of the spectrum. The color of a clear summer sky or a deep, reflective ocean, blue has traditionally symbolized trust, solitude, and loyalty. Most likely a thoughtful person who values spending some time on your own, you'd rather connect deeply with a few people than have a bunch of slight acquaintances. Luckily, making close friends isn't that hard, since people are naturally attracted to you — they're soothed by your calming presence. Cool and collected, you rarely overreact. Instead, you think things through before coming to a decision. That level-headed, thoughtful approach to life is patently blue — and patently you!

Thursday, November 30, 2006

before sunrise and sunset

i saw both these movies ..before sunrise yesterday and before sunset im too lazy to write the plot of these movies here, so if u dont know the plot u can go to these links(trust me it is worth it)
all i want to write is that i loved both of them..its enchanting to see how both these movies can enrapture the audience when all they have throughout is conversation between the two protagonists..but somehow u dont seem like missing even one sentence of their talk..beautiful movies, both of them...a must see for romantics as well for cynics who believe love doesnt exist..

"i really wish they would allow gay people to marry"..."well they do, only not to the same sex"

"i really wish they would allow gay people to marry"..."well they do, only not to the same sex"
these are dialogues from a play i read today by mahesh dattani-"On a muggy night in mumbai"
the play was about homosexuality.this is a topic i have heard about, but this is the first time i got such an insight to how difficult society is to them.pretty nice play i wud reflects about how different people have different ways of dealing wid their homosexuality.its about a group of guy is married and has sex on the side.another guy is afraid to admit so he goes to a shrink and tries to believe that it is a disease which can be cured and yet another guy leaves india for britian sayin that he cant be a homosexual and an indian.
that line affected me a lot and forced me to think about why the situation here is so i decided to do some research into homosexuality laws here.
this is what wikipedia had
"Gay marriage is not a debated issue in India, a country where homosexuality is still technically illegal. Except for a few sporadic incidents, homosexuality or same-sex marriages are almost never discussed in public though the situation has changed significantly."
"There is no legal recognition of same-sex couples under Indian law. During a recent visit to India by the Canadian Prime Minister Paul Martin, the Indian Prime Minister Manmohan Singh was asked by a journalist what he thought of the new law allowing gay marriage in Canada. His reply was that "there would not be much appreciation for a law like that in India," and he went on to talk about how they were culturally very different societies."
pretty primitive right?but thats what we are:D..well i cant even say they are because i know that at some point or the other i have been a part of the society that makes fun of such people.look at how gay men are projected in the serials for laughs.
but i guess, after reading this play i'll be a little more sensitive to this cause.

Sunday, November 26, 2006

my little bride

i just watched this movie yesterday and really found it sweet..."my little bride"....its a korean movie..its about this guy and girl who have been childhood friends as their families are very close..they are forced to get married by their grandfather(whos pretending to be on the death bed) when the girl is just 15 in high here arrives a married couple where the girl is yet a small kid and the guy in his prime age (around 22) so he wants to flirt around..its a really cute story of how they fall in love and realize the essence of their marriage...criously, koreans and korean movies are soo cute[:D]..they have this fresh feel about them...everything looks beautiful in their movies..

Monday, November 20, 2006

im freeeeee todayyy

my endsems just ended totally for 40 of of of getting up in the morning..perhaps this feeling has yet not sunk in...of being free....maybe that or maybe due to some other also sad..
sometimes i think that i am sad too often...weird but sumwhere i think i like being sad...makes me think about things which i being sad makes me happy...told u its weird...
i want a day alone...alone from anyone i know...for myself...just me and my thoughts...then only can i really get connected with the world...maybe wen i go shut myself in the room for a day and do what i want to...i want to be in the rajai in the cold wid a novel in hand and sipping warm tea..i want a day wen i do wat i want to ...widout caring for anyone else...a day wen my wishes rule me...i want to sit in crossword for hours together...i want to maybe go to CCD alone, order a coffee and stay there reading a novel or writing for hours till i get bored of that..i want to sleep indefinitely till i wake up on my own..
its gud being mind just keeps thinking of things i want to do....

Saturday, October 21, 2006

diwali day

today i came home for diwali..just reached chandigarh early morning so and had travelled by bus the entire nite so i was pretty exhausted the whole day..we had loads of guests the entire day so was on my feet the whole time.its nite now and im exhausted..physically
im thinkin a lot about so many random things..seems like suddenly i have infinite time for thinking..i went to an old couples place today whose children live in the states and realized how alone they are..tat sort of reminded me tat in the future however busy i may get i shud make it a point to take care of mine nd my future hubby's(;)he he) parents..bahut door ki soch lag rahi hogi but tats me:)
also saw a bit of the movie "chandni" and started thnking tat love can last through difficult and seeming hopeless situations like losing a limb...
btw i love ghar ka khaana totally..tat was the best part of the day..and i have to go for dinner now-chicken biryani ..tats like a tradition 4 r family on wil continue later

Saturday, September 30, 2006

color quiz

he he..copied sum1 and decided to take this color quiz..i dont know whether the analysis is correct or not..shows how much i know myself:d.. took the free personality test!

"Longs for a tender and sympathetic bond and for a ..."

Click here to read the rest of the results.

Tuesday, September 19, 2006

bas theek hi hun

im feeling weird today...weird, sad or maybe im just thinking too much..
basically im feeling aimless..i dont know what i want from life...
im aimless...
till now i just kept moving on a path..without asking myself what or why..
perhaps if i had asked myself these questions i wouldnt have been in IIT..
but its not as if i am sad..its not as if im not happy..but i just want something more from life..
im happy with my personal happy wid wat i am as a person but professionally im not happy with myself..there is nothing im good at or excellent at..i can write a bit..i can act a bit..i can draw a bit..i have an average cpi...bas sab theek hi hai..usse achha i'd rather suck at something and be excellent at something else..
but theek hai..there are a lot of respects in which im lucky..people who matter to me care for me..are there for me always..very few get even tat much..
but kya karein..maybe i expect a little too much from life:p:d

Tuesday, August 15, 2006

relish life

Relish life
In this fast paced world of competition, we are so busy running in a rat race that we have forgotten how to live life. We are so busy doing this and that, fretting to meet deadlines, working overtime to earn that extra rupee that we have forgotten the purpose of all this. This is where we are going wrong and giving a wrong impression to the future generation that money is everything. I recently read Lee Iacocca’s autobiography in which he has stated that however busy he was in his life at Ford, he always tried his best to take out the weekends for his family. He went on to express that you are a failure as a manager if you can manage such heavy schedules but not find time for family life. How true! What is the point of achieving tremendous success if you can’t find time for your own little pleasures?

Think deeply. When was the last time you sat and watched the rain for a few minutes? When was the last time you cooked something special with pleasure? When was the last time you had a cup of coffee or tea with relish? When was the last time you spoke to yourself? When was the last time you took your spouse out for dinner? Can’t remember?

Well, that’s not surprising. In facing the bigger problems in life we tend to forget the smaller joys. We don’t need to be rich to encash these joys. These are ours, just waiting to be relished. Next time you come out of your office and its raining, don’t rush to your car, get a little wet. Take your spouse out some evening. Sit and watch the rain someday while sipping your tea. As someone rightly said- life is an ice cream, enjoy it before it melts…


Im scared today..scared of dreaming and thinking of stuff I might not be able to have..there are things that I think I want but am not allowed to get..wat do I do?break the restrictions?or continue living as I am..there are things I think I would be happy with but I will end up hurting some of my loved ones..what should I do??shud I follow my heart or the rules set for me??
Scared today

Scared to dream
In case I dream too much

Scared to think
In case I think too much

Scared to hope
In case my hopes are shattered

Scared to expect
In case I am disappointed

Scared to be happy
In case I reach the peak and fall

But still dreaming
Being happy

And finally happiness is what that matters:-p

aapse milkar

aapse milkar kuch ajab sa ho gaya hai
jaise tanhayee se prem ho gaya hai
sab ke saath hotein hai to tanhai ko taraste hain
aur tanhai mein aapke baare mein bi sochte hain
dil ko ek ajab sa sukoon milta hai
jab aapke khayal ka phool dil mein khilta hai
tanha hotein hai to aapke shabdon ko taraste hain
ichha karte hain ke apko ehsaas ho hamari tanhayi ka
kabhi socha na tha ki hamaare aise haal honge
ki jisse bole bina raha na jaata tha
wahi apni chuppi mein sukh paati hai
niraala hai ye ishqjo chanchal ko shaant banata hai
pehle bhi aapke shabd meethe lagte the
par ab to weh shehed lagte hain
aapse kuch der baat na hoto sab kuch adhoora lagta hai
ek pal ke liye jhalak mil jaayeto hi din poora lagta hai
ye prem hi hai
jo chitt ko swach kar
mann ko khush kar
aanand prapt karwata hai
baaki sab tuch haijhuth hai
prem hi sach hai

i stil remember

I still remember..

I still remember those nights
Moonlit, starry nights
When hand in hand we walked away
Walked away to eternal bliss
That slight fragrance of jasmine
That familiar scent of your body
I still remember..

I still remember those days
Sunny, warm winter days
When together on the green grass we lay
Lay, feeling content
That brightness of the flowers
That sight of your smile
I still remember..

I still remember those times
Depressed, frustrated, dark times
When you held me
Held me as never before
The way you kissed my eyes
The way you gave me strength
I still remember..

You have taken away a lot
Left me quite bereft
But there are things you left behind
The memories, the touch, the feel
You can’t take them away
As they, are mine
So I still remember
I still remember..

Note: inspired by the songs of silsilay. Perspective of rekha (chandni) after amitabh bachhan (amit) leaves her to marry jaya (shobha). The movie has awesome poetry narrated by amitabh. My favourite lines from this poem are “You have taken away a lot, left me quite bereft”. They somehow touch me deeply.